We keep waiting for the world to change

I know I haven't said anything about the skiing trip yet, but now that will change. I am in the blog-zone-mode now I realize. Three posts, one day, really?

So. Thursday morning I went to school carrying all my bags while at the same time looking ridiculous. I had like one class and then an exam that I hadn't studied for. Irresponsible, oh well. After that I spent like 4 hours in school with Teo and Emil while waiting for the bus to come. The bus-ride took us about 12 hours and we slept on the bus, there were some really "comfy" beds... oh yeah.

Friday morning when we arrived we skied the whole day, having an awesome time. In the evening we learned about avalanches again and then had dinner. Saturday and Sunday looked mostly the same with lots of skiing of course. We left Sunday evening and were back at school Monday morning where I then stayed the whole day until 4 p.m. I don't think I have ever been as tired as I was then. This whole trip exceeded my expectations completely, I was really nervous before leaving but everything turned out very well. It made me so happy. :)

Haha, funny thing though was that on Tuesday (the day after coming home) I was going ice-skating the whole day on the frozen lakes around Stockholm. I loved it, it was so beautiful. But I still hadn't really recovered from the skiing trip, but I managed to do okay considering it was my first time with those long-bladed skates.

 Sorry, the quality sucks. I didn't bring my SLR this time..

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Tänkte bara säga att jag saknar dig, jag saknar oss.

Once upon a time we fell apart

My day has been really interesting! Not..

I woke up early, got an amazing hair color idea, did it, went to Ingarö to go get some stuff, came home, washed my clothes for 2 hours while sitting in the laundry room talking to Amanda and Andrea, went out to eat with Jenny and Ullis, and now, I am home. (please notice, NO SCHOOL)

I know, that wasn't really any details, but better than nothing. Below are some pics of me and my hair color idea, some days the camera just loves you and other days you better stay away. I think today was a rather good day. Haha.

Remember a candle's fire is only just a flame

How can somebody love you if you are not even sure if you love yourself? Isn't it really interesting when you think about it? I mean, love? How does it help us and our species to survive? Wouldn't it be better to not love somebody and then have children with a lot of different people to extend the gene pool? That is just a crazy thought or maybe not so crazy, isn't that how most animals do?

Anyway. That was really weird, I know. But I was thinking. When people give me compliments, tell me I look nice or whatever it might be, how come that I can never believe it? I usually think that I can "take" a compliment but in the back of my head I think otherwise. I can't picture myself the way the compliment might picture me. I have a feeling that a lot of people feel the same way. Why are we always so insecure when it comes down to ourselves? Again, I don't understand how anyone can love me when I don't see my own beauty, only my flaws. 

Maybe it is time to focus my energy and put it were I can use it for my own good. From now on, I will start believing what compliments I might get, I won't be so self conscious. So, my conclusion: We don't see the beauty in ourselves that we see in others. But when thinking about it, who are the others if they aren't just a reflection of ourselves?  

Kittelfjäll

I am going on a skiing trip with school today, I will be back on Monday!
Lots of love to all of you. <3

I will be chasing a starlight, Until the end of my life

Today has been a pretty good day! I woke up at nine, took a shower, cleaned the kitchen, packed my bag and finished some other stuff. Later on I met up with Teo and we played pool and bought tea (which I normally don't like (except for chai) but surprisingly did this time). Hrm what else? We went to Slussen and I took the bus to Ingarö where I am right now. This evening I have been eating and trying to study while signing in on facebook reguarly every 9 minutes, is that addiction? Anyways, I am trying to write some history essays, and I don't even know where to start. *kill me*. 

I don't really have any pictures that fit in, so I thought I could post some more pictures of love. My sister and Ossian (ja, jag är moster)! Please ignore me, look at the precious baby! <3

hehehehe, this pic especially showcases our beauty. The inside counts, right?

I have been here all along, why can't you see me?

Better late then never I am going to post some pics from new years eve! This years dinner took place at Ullis's apartment with the usual people. It was really nice and the food was delicious! Before twelve o'clock the "kids" went to "Slussen" to welcome the new year with champagne and fireworks! It was so pretty. Amanda and Andrea joined us as well. I love fireworks, they are so beautiful. The loud "baang" and then they just bloom and unfold their "wings" and show all their colors. Haha, makes sense?

After that we went to the subway which was going to take us to the clubs were we had planned to spend the rest of the night. It was actually a lot of fun and we went home when it closed. WHoooop, that was all for me!

 The olds folks! :D

 Me, Emma and Ullis

 Little brother and me. hehe.

 Ullis, Emma, Ullis little brother Andreas and Erik.

By now, you know us! Snygga vänner man har, jag älskar er! <3

I am closer to the edge now

Vad fan är det som händer? Jag är så förvirrad, varför nu?
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Okay. So. I have just been watching my beloved wall in my bedroom now for a while. I am very happy with how it looks now. It is not just a wall any more, this wall has freaking personality. It speaks to me. And above all, it has love. It has love written all over it. The things I love, what makes me happy and what people in my life that makes me feel good. I still need to add some things too it, more love. I can watch it, see where I was a long time ago, and compare it to where I am right now. It is actually a very interesting timeline (facebook inspired?) of my life.

Haha, it is not much yet, but I will build on it. :)

It has been a long time just to see you smile

I am lost. Lost in the world of knowledge. There is so much that we don't know, that we will ever know. That is why we only chose to learn what is important to us. I am not saying that I don't find natural science to be important, but I think there is much more perspective to find and gain if we only look around us. Observe.

I had a very interesting conversation yesterday about "rocking the boat". If everyone are "content" with a situation, should you really try to improve it even if that could rock the boat so that we all fall in the water? If the boat is already rocking is it that bad to help it a little on the way? Sometimes it needs to be rocked in order to once more stand still. The tricky way though is to not fall in the water in the process, if you do, you need to have somebody that is strong enough to pull you up again. But on the other hand, I am not sure if I want to be on the rocking boat, I would get seasick. I would rather stay in the water than in a place were feelings can not be approached.